The very fact that we are still seeking love after toxicity tells me how powerful a force it is that it is able to break through and let us know that we deserve it and that our children deserve it.
Last night memories of my previous church bombarded my mind. Pictures of the building where I had spent so much time drifted into my mind haunting me like a ghost. While every part of my mind wants to block them out completely, I wanted to be sure that I paid attention to what I was feeling about what I was seeing. I started reading Whole Again: Healing Your Heart and Rediscovering Your… Read More
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.” —Nelson Mandela As a Six on the enneagram, I am one of those people who imagines the worst case scenario. Sometimes I drive myself and my family crazy providing information about what could happen if we are not careful. The… Read More
An idea cannot be responsible for those who claim to believe in it. Phillip Yancey, Where the Light Fell Recently, I finished Phillip Yancey’s memoir Where the Light Fell. Yancey’s books have been so helpful to me over the years, especially when I have been disillusioned with God and the church. After reading his memoir, I have gained a better understanding of how he is able to write about this kind of… Read More
Maybe it’s not so much about picking out the good and bad teachings. Maybe the way up is about looking at how the teachings are being used and the fruit that is growing on the vine.
Over the weekend, I had a conversation with my oldest son about him finding a church to attend. It was clear to me, and I’m sure to him, that I still struggle with a lot of anger towards religious institutions that bring more harm than good. The shame. The fear. The guilt. The judgments. The abuse of power. The taking advantage of the vulnerable. I had to work hard to offer much… Read More
I visualized myself as an adult, who wasn’t afraid to look her abuser in the eye and say it with firmness and walk away. NO. After having done a lot of work around understanding abuse, I know that feeling regret or shame over not saying no will only keep me on a destructive path. As I look towards the less traveled pathway it must be with self compassion. Only then, am I able to continue to move into what feels like uncharted territory.
What illusion did you lose as a result of being disillusioned?
Where our limitations begin, another person’s gifting can begin.