A few weeks ago the pastor at the church we’ve been attending said something that has replayed in my head ever since. He said, “Maybe you got what you wanted, and when you grabbed hold of it it turned to ashes.”
A visual picture flashed in my mind the moment he spoke. I could see in my mind’s eye ashes falling through my fingers.
I believed when I met a pastor who called me his little girl that everything I ever wanted I had received.
But it all turned to ashes.
As I look back at all the time I wasted, sometimes all I can see is a large pile of gray dust.
Sometimes it seems like there is no life anywhere in sight.
My hands are empty now.
What I once held so dear is gone.
I am afraid to grab hold of anything else.
Afraid that it will turn to ashes, too.
I realize maybe this is the best place for me to be.
With empty hands held open waiting for God to give me what I really need.
So much has been lost.
But so much needed to be gone.
The only way to receive from God is to let go.
He makes beautiful things out of the dust.
When our dreams burn up we realize how superficial they really were.
God has called us to something deeper.
We were made for more.
We were made to live.
Live in the love of our Heavenly Father who knew us and what we needed before the beginning of time.
The Spirit of God , the Master, is on me because God anointed me. He sent me to preach good news to the poor, heal the heartbroken, Announce freedom to all captives, pardon all prisoners. God sent me to announce the year of his grace— a celebration of God’s destruction of our enemies— and to comfort all who mourn, To care for the needs of all who mourn in Zion, give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes, Messages of joy instead of news of doom, a praising heart instead of a languid spirit. Rename them “Oaks of Righteousness” planted by God to display his glory. They’ll rebuild the old ruins, raise a new city out of the wreckage. They’ll start over on the ruined cities, take the rubble left behind and make it new. You’ll hire outsiders to herd your flocks and foreigners to work your fields, But you’ll have the title “Priests of God ,” honored as ministers of our God. You’ll feast on the bounty of nations, you’ll bask in their glory. Because you got a double dose of trouble and more than your share of contempt, Your inheritance in the land will be doubled and your joy go on forever.
Isaiah 61:1-7 MSG